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You know you're obsessed when you have watched the opening to a Japanese game over and over just to hear the music, but yet you know the exact part in the music that your fave character shows up (LUC!!!) so you always stop what your doing to click back to the movie. *sighs*

I also want to apologize to Suikoden fans who come here, since I found out that merely knowing who the man in the mask is is a spoiler. Gomen ne... *hangs head*

*huggles minna* Oh, and good luck with your blog Asuka!! *waves to Pam, 2 Katies, and 2 girls she doesn't know but hopes has fun anyway!*

Sarabi? I have a favor to ask of you tonight!!! *puts on puppy dog eyes*

*tackles Yui-chan* I'm gonna be more like Ayame!!! ^____^

*glomps Ruka again*

*Huggles Rane in thanks for last night*

*wipes tears out of her eyes* Omg, Yui's comment on my crack-induced post was so damn funny and true, I had to post it here for all to see.

"It's ok Dani. No one is perfect otherwise we'd all be Ayame. *hugs*"

LMAO!! SO TRUE!!! Then we'd all be trying to get ourselves to go out on dates with ourselves and *gets confused at the concept* Uhm, yeah.

Expect some major changes on my blog soon.

And Pam? Pam who I don't get to talk to again for a week? ;_; I'll miss ya. Lots.

Okay I confess. I stole some of Yui's CRACK and it must have a different effect on me than it does on her. She gets silly, I get depressed. No more crack for me, okay? *Sighs* Gomen ne for posting that here.

*sighs* If anyone knows a good place to buy anime/game soundtracks from besides animenation.com or gamemusic.com, or if you know a request board for streamloaders set aside just for this purpose, please let me know. I'm missing 2 Suikoden music cd's, when I thought I had them all. I can't find these two for sale ANYWHERE. Anyone know ANYTHING?

WARNING: This post isn't pretty and I won't be able to apologize for it later. If you think the truth may hurt, don't read this.

I feel so mad...
I feel so angry...
I feel so calloused...
so lost, confused...

I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of other people hurting. I'm really tired of hurting others or them hurting me. I can deal with the hurt. I can keep it all inside and put on a bright smile and never let you know I'm dying inside. When I hurt you, I can tell. Sometimes, I'm even mean enough to do it on purpose. Isn't that just horrid? Sometimes I feel like me being nice or sweet is just an act I put on to get others to like me. Why? Because deep down inside I know I'm just a stupid girl who doesn't deserve your friendship. I don't deserve to be happy at all. Maybe I could cut myself off, but I'm too afraid of hurting you or being alone.

I'm so scared of finding out no one really cares about me, that maybe you are just trying to make me happy by humoring me. I hate this side of me. So many fake facets, lies, secrets, and hurt. So much hurt. But... I'll try my best not to hurt anymore. You or me. I've done so much damage that I don't think anything can repair it. The hurt I've caused in you was NOT intentional and I never meant for you to know that I was hurt anyway. I feel like I can hardly trust anyone with the way I feel anymore because telling them makes it get back to others and them there's hurt. I can't ask for forgiveness and I should be forced to face this shame as punishment. But I can change my ways so that one day I can accept to myself a good friend. Right now? I feel about like a piece of shit.

Que sara, sara, ne? It's sad that I started this note out to one person, yet easily it is an explanation for at least 4 people I've hurt lately. It all fits for all of you, and that is a sad sad thing. Maybe I can become someone smarter one day and stop this crap. I won't be so damned stupid and could see situations for what they really are. I feel so blind. My head really hurts. My heart is very very heavy. I feel so cynical. Maybe one day I won't have to live in the shadows of the fantasy worlds in my head. Maybe one day I can be myself, too. And maybe, just maybe, then the hurt will all stop. I don't even have the guts to say I'm sorry. But I am. I truly truly am. Don't you dare forgive me.

I feel so cheap,
so used, unfaithful,
Let's start over...
Let's start over...

*does a tiny spin dance and points to the new pic that is NOT MOMIJI on her blog* Tah-dah!! From what I can piece together without getting a handful of spoilers? The man in the mask over there is Luc! Wai wai!! *dances around even more happily* And I found a few nice lil ways to celebrate my Suiko-happy day ^_^ SUIKO-QUIZZES! I don't care that you've never played! Take them now, I wanna see who you all are!! Pwease??? (Btw, in the code the girl gives you in your answers? Change the "b" to an "x" in the picture name to make them work. Like mine showed as ww.yaha.netto/bviki.jpg so I had to change the b to x.)

You're Viki! A little slow on the uptake never hurt anyone, right? You're lighthearted and fluffy and enjoy cute things. Some people might call you an airhead, but you try your hardest and that's what matters most. You're probably most known for your forgetfulness and/or bad sense of direction. Which Suikoden girl are you?

YATTA! I got VIKI! *nudge nudge* One of my fave Suiko-pairings is Luc x Viki ^___^ And yes, just because they stand in the room together all the damn time IS a giant hint!! Nyah! What the hell is a waffu anyway???

You're Seed! And just how old are you again? Looks may be deceiving in your case, because not only are you a powerhouse on the battlefield, but you love to have fun. You tend to joke around and keep people's spirits up, but don't overdo it or you just might get a little.. well.. bothersome to your partner. Which Suikoden guy are you?

Err... *scratches her head on this one* Any Suiko-fans out there saw a silly side in Seed? I saw the powerhouse part, but a jokester? Keeping people's spirits up?? OOOhhhkaaay... *pat pats the quizmaster's head* At least Viki was right on!!

Ah, better get back to my lil PWP before it dies on me too.... *sighs*

^^v *huggles to minna*

*Squeals* OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OOOOOOOOOOH MYYYYYYYYYY GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWD! Did you guys even know that there's one guy that I fangirl for even more than I fangirl for Momiji? He's a guy from the Suikoden series... his name is Luc... And well... He was 17 in part 2 and I really thought since part 3 was set 15 years later that he'd be all left out.

LUC IS CONFIRMED TO BE IN PART 3!!!

This is such a happy happy day! I'm soooo happy now this smile won't fade!! I even got the intro movie *sighs with contentment* November needs to get here now so I can play it!! I suddenly understand the whole orgasmic twin thing that the HnG people have... I could not stop squealing and jumping and clapping and crying!!! Good thing I'm home alone!

Ruka had to go back home today. Ima miss her, but I really didn't get to see her that much anyway. *sighs* In fact I think her plane is taking off as I write this. I feel sorry for her and my bro.

Oh yeah, Futch is coming back too! In Suikoden 3 I mean. I've been having so many new layout ideas for my blog. I would really hate to take down Momiji but I dunno. If I get a pic of Luc from that game... *shakes head*

*huggles Yui* Thanks for telling Pam about my secret Suikoden PWP ^_^ I am kidding, honest! I do love your new layout sooo much!! Gonna have to find out what this Tsubasa Wo Motsu Mono thing is, too. Seems everyone is talking about it...

She LIVES by the grace of someone somewhere she LIVES! Okay, my feeble fans, this is the time for you to rejoice!... *hears crickets chirping and hangs her head* THANKS guys. Anyway.

Yeah so, here's proof that my life is either really really weird or I'm just as lame as I feel I am. Three days ago, a message was left on my answering machine for me. It was from my sophomore year's English teacher from high school. She was the first one that made me realize that I really loved English and I was actually good at it. She also taught me my first year of Spanish. That year, I had her for three classes in a row, so when she showed a movie for x-mas, I had to watch the same parts of "A Christmas Story" three times in a row. -_- Ask me why I can't stand it, dare you. hehe. I really hated the fact that my class were such jerks when they found out her husband was killed in a motorcycle wreck and would think it was funny to ask her if she wanted to go out Saturday night with them and go riding on Harleys. I think that's when my first bouts of empathy began, because when they'd start that and she'd take it? I'd put my head down and cry for her. Oh yeah... the message.

She said she had something to discuss with me that I might be interested in. So after 2 days of playing phone tag with answering machines, we finally got to talk to each other. Seems that she's going to England with her mother at the first of November for a few weeks. She doesn't want to put her doggie and kitty and fishie in a kennel and didn't want them to be lonely either. The only solution she's happy with is someone staying in her house to take care of them. And I'll be damned if her mind didn't turn to me, one of her shy depressed students that always had her nose in a book from almost 10 years ago. She found my name in the book... Said she was gonna leave about $400 to take care of me and the animals if I would do it. She lives in a really nice neighborhood in a nice nice house... I'm so happy over this. It's so damn exciting yet I still have to wonder: Why me? *blinkblinks* I've got a dinner date to meet the animals sometime next month. ^^v

Lmao, between Yui and I, we have Pam thinking that Rane is infamous ^_^ About time she got some damn credit around here! *giggles* Princess Rane's new layout is so dark though.. Not used to dark from her... But at least Ludwig is hot ^____^

So the reason I'm not around much lately is because the Princess of Shabazz is staying with me. Er, Ruka. I've been working the past few days, but she's here. I find it weird that I am not sure what to say to her outside talking about games and anime and hot guys... Sad, but her and I seem to get along. Especially after a slight panic attack or 4 had my day soooo fucked over.

YUI AND SARABI!!!!! OMG I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! I'm also missing Mona and Rane and my new friends from #zetsuai too... *sighs* I'll have to find you guys online sometime soon. Gomen nasai for not being around and I hope you guys don't forget me.

*big big huggles to minna*

Wai!! Pam's Please Flowers Bloom For Them blog is really cute now ^_^ I had to teach her what lil html I knew and she has done pretty good with it. I looooove the pic of Ishuca and Blood. *dies* Blood is so damn hot! Anyways, I just had to say that!

And I wonder what she means by me *liking* Zaha. I wonder if she knows I WANT Zaha.... lol.

Time for me to say something new, eh? Hehe. Well, first off so no one misses me too much, Ruka (my friend from Maryland and my bro's girlfriend) is staying with me for another week. So between that and work I don't know how much I'll be online or whatever. I'm also trying to get a bit of writing done before my YYH kick wears off. I'm working on a Kuronue fanfic right now and it's not turning out the way I wanted it to.

And Trigun is still soooo good. Up to ep 17 now.

Uhm... *is blank on anything to say* I'll be helping Pam with her blog today, trying to spiff it up a bit. I'll be working that godforsaken 12-9 shift for the next 3 days. -_-

You guys aren't gonna believe how good Yui's lil mystery lemon is gonna be. What I've read so far is awesome, it really is. I'm not just saying that either.